Digging down into a deep pit,
I just want to stop and quit.
Maybe it’s given that they win,
All it has done is give me chagrin.
Maybe I’m just a weak coward,
Everything has truly soured.
Maybe there’s nothing for me in life,
It’s all literally just strife.
I don’t even remember a time when I was happy,
The few memories I remember is all crappy.
It’s a huge thing to decide,
To die or to hide.
How do I even live?
Things are taking a nose dive.
How do I thrive?
I just barely survive.
The world is coming to a stand-still,
While I’m rolling downhill.
Where’s my goddamn will?
I hate the poison that is known as a pill.
My thinking is starting to degrade,
Insight is really just a double-edged blade.
Just drop the fucking charade,
I’m just waiting for replaceds to invade.
They all got bigots in their pockets,
Quacking like there’s a quake,
That’s why we need a milkshake.
Break bones, why bother loners?
Legos literally don’t let go,
They really stick like a duck.
There’s a tomboy, skating around.
It’s the boxes, it’s the boxes.
Hexes all over, hexes on noses.
Red shattered thread that has migrations,
Illusions are fusions into reality,
Opening a veal cutter to strike,
Yellow boat, about to be afloat.
Lag like a skag-king, you got pucks.
Glad like a laddie skipping over rocks.
Fuckin’ duck, what pucks away the buck?
Goddamn right, tin can tin can.
Wacko people are itchy like bitches.
Help the sleep sheep, out of beer.
As the sun falls, the canoes flies with bugs.
What is a danger within danger circle?
Underrooting everything to the oblivion point.
Unsafe, unsafe, unsafe, unsafe.
Yet just like a fucking duck cafe with a fare.
Poked by a needle, needs to have a bard.
Bits of insanity falls, to truth and fear.
Deal for the real, but I’m fucked.
Xanax be a flux, fluke, flute.
Not a klingon, but we are king period.
There’s a dog that bathes himself.
Bark might as well fall off. Bark bark.
Worlds apart, indeed. Be a part of it all.
People get so tall, they fall.
Locked in everything and fucking chickens.
Blitz to a flitz, fizz out.
Pretzels get into knots but they have straightened.
What’s a life within a mind?
What is real or fake?
For fuck’s sake.
Brake before I break.
I realize what’s at stake.
Doing drugs to mute the pain,
The fault of this all is my brain,
I’m not right as rain,
Is it really all in vain?
d ESPAIRING IMPAIRMENT
e NDLESS SADNESS
p OWERLESS FEELING
r ESTING ALL THE TIME
e NSARNED AND HOPELESS
s TUCK IN DARKNESS
s EARCHING FOR LIGHT
i MPAIRED THINKING
o VERWHELMED BY EMPTINESS
n EEDLESS HARM
s AYING GIBBERISH
c ACKLING MALICIOUS VOICES
h ALLUINATIONS OF EVIL
i N BETWEEN MOODS
z ONKED OUT
o VERLY PARANOID
a MPLIFIED SENSES
f LAT AFFECT
f INDING THINGS SUSPICIOUS
e NDLESS CYCLES
c UFFED BY COPS
t EMPTATION TO SPEND
i NABILITY TO SPEAK
v IOLENT THOUGHTS
e NDURING DEPRESSION
b ACK TO BACK EPISODES
i RRITABLE AT ANYTHING
p SYCH MEDICATION FOR LIFE
o UT AND IN HOSPITALS
l ONG CYCLE OF MOODS
a LCOHOL AND DRUGS
r AMBLING MANIA
How the fuck do I think?
The voices drive me to the brink.
I just wish they would shrink.
Just going and going,
There’s absolutely no slowing,
Listening to them crowing.
Just trying to hang in there,
They don’t care how I fare,
I may as well be a square.
Trying to seek peace,
They never let their speaking to cease,
Why can’t they be nice?
Redirecting them as much as possible,
Trying to be responsible,
Feats that are near-impossible.
Feeling like I was run over,
As my mood lower,
Can’t they go slower?
Overwhelming voices that interrupt,
They really love to disrupt,
I wonder if they can corrupt.
Just leave me alone.
Don’t talk to me in that tone.
Just be gone.